Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in Frankee :)'s LiveJournal:

Monday, October 29th, 2007
11:27 pm	nothing particular I havnt wrote in here for quite a while i dont usually bother because it feels like im talking to myself.. So at the moment its about half 11 its Monday, but i keep having to think what day it is because i havnt been out properly or done anything routine for a few days I have tonsilitous, which sounds pathetic, and if i didnt have it then i wouldnt really be bothered if someone had it, which isnt really that nice.. But its really not a nice thing to have, and its driving me crazy because i just want it to go away so i can go out and go to work or just do some college work or something! Life at the moment is pretty bad, im very close to loosing my job, basically got told if i took one more day off last week then id get put on disipline, then i got ill so i havnt been in for a few days, and mum just booked a holiday for xmas, which happens to be the busiest time for shops, so i will probably get fired, but i think im getting signs that i should quit anyway, with all the drunks and druggies that come in, how stessed i get there, and constantly being on the till, its a bit too much, id rather have a quiet job where i didn't have to do alot haha I finally spoke in a friendly way to clo on Saturday, i couldn't get my jacket on so she had to help, i actually miss her quite abit, i feel like a bit of an idiot for overreacting like i did, and over the stupidest of things :/ In other news about friends, ive finally given up on ben, i don't think he cares about me in the slightest, he only talks to me when he wants something, and i know this is a really bad thing to say after everything that has happened to him lately, i tried to be there for him, but he couldn't care less, i really think, that to him, im just a friend who he has to see occasioanly, he's got the worst memory ever, i can't put it into words how i feel about him, i just really rather forget him right now Ive been thinking alot lately, about friends and stuff, its like, you watch a tv programme, and all the people on there are really close, they've got there family, a group of friends, a boyfriend and there enjoying life, then i look at mine, i do not have a family, well technically i do, i have a mum who has a new boyfriend and would rather spend time with him than me, a dad who is always on holiday with bitchface and my brother who lives in southampton and i never see, i dont have a group of friends because im not particually close to anyone and i dont really know why, i dont have a boyfriend, dont know why on that either, and its like, really confusing to think about all of this and put it into words without sounding like an attention seeker really It'd be nice to have someone to talk to once in a while thats all... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 18th, 2007
10:01 pm	Male Gender Recently, well actually not recently, this has been happening for years, i need to get it out of my system properly though. I know everyone is different And that girls can be exactly the same etc But i always pick the bad ones Like, they always have something they don't like about me, so they try and change it, and i do it because i want to please them and im not actually confident that they will still like me if i don't change I hate playing games, but i guess guys like to be chased, another thing i find very hard to do I do get attatched very easily If im with someone, or like seeing someone, and they end whatever's going on, i'll be sad for a while, then someone new will come along, and i'll forget the last person even exsisted I don't think i move on too quickly though I think i crave being with someone Maybe its because im young, i don't really know to be honest Hopefully it will change when im older Its not that i don't know that i've got people there for me Ive got some really good friends But we all know a 'friend' isn't the same as a'bf/gf' is it? Well i don't think it is Im not really upset, in some ways i think im kind of immune to getting hurt by boys, i havn't been particullay fucked over Ou of everything, i think my main perception on guys is that they are cowards, or get scared and just run away, with no intention of saying how they feel about the whole situation Thats probably why they run a mile, because i can be completly open with how im feeling and im not scared of commitment, im looking forward to it! I believe that there is someone out there for everyone, even me :D So no regrets on the male front Each situation has made me learn more about dealing with situations and im content on how things are atm. Current Mood: good (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 1st, 2007
10:24 pm	badddd mood Today was so nice right went to poole to see soph and dean walked around for a bit had lunch went to the quay and the nearly fell asleep on poole park grass lol then brought some cd's etc came home, went to the gym with jess, then we went into the swimming pool that was when it hit me have you ever been in that situation facing your worst ever enemie you think about the things you would say and do to that person if you ever met or saw them, because of what they have done but when your actually faced with that one moment, you would hope to be able to do and say all the things that youve always wanted to but no, i just couldnt do it, i didnt have it in me she basically won on that battle, stupid bint it makes me so angry but i can rise above it, pretend it never happened and move on its stupid little things that like to ruin your day right at the end good thing its at the end though, i can go to bed now :) (Comment on this)
Monday, July 30th, 2007
9:21 pm	Story of a lonely guy its the songs that you can relate to that are most horrible when you try and block things out but deep, really deep down, you've still got those hurt feelings you pretend you dont care some of you are lucky as hell to have a family people who love you i have that, but not 100% id prefer not to write this on the internet because lets face it, everyone has different stories to tell and, although some of us can relate in some way, its always a bit different when its happened to you Current Mood: curious (Comment on this)
7:43 pm	First post  I dont know what to write really this is kinda like a myspace bulliton to me, i usually have huge rants in them, but i thought this would be better, im not really fussed who reads it etc I didnt really do alot today, worked 9 till half 5, had such a boring day, and im going to start looking for a new job Like, you know when someone is making it blatently obvious that they like you, and first off your like,'firslty, your coming on to strong even if i did like you' and secondly 'not in a millllllion years mate' aha so its pretty uncomfortable atm i guess ive got work again tommorow, but then i managed to score the day off for wednesday, because that would of made it 6 days a in a row, and i really dont want to work for that much i want to go to the cinema on wednesday night or tommorow, saw the simpsons movie and hairspray recently, both have now become my favourite films in a good while lol not much else to say really :) Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)